"I don't love you enough."

I've always loved my boyfriend more than he's loved me. 

Last April, I asked if he ever wanted to marry me. We got in a big fight. He said "I don't love you enough" and "It'll only end in divorce." 

I think about it every day. Every. Single. Day. It's like a little asterisk every time he says I love you.

I love you*

*but not enough.

I cry almost every night, thinking about how long I have.