After graduating from high school at 18, I fell into a life of drugs and alcohol. I wanted to get clean, so I went to my grandmother's house. Our relationship wasn't great, but she had offered me a place to stay if I was ever in need. Strung out on meth and cocaine, I called her numerous times on the way to her house, but she didn't answer. Once I arrived at her house, she didn't answer the door. The police showed up and told me to get off the property.
That night I slept at the bus stop around the corner from her house. I slept in the snow.
The next morning I called my uncle who lived in another state, begging for help. All he did was give me my father's phone number. My only memory of my father was him locking me in the closet while he beat my mother. When I got ahold of him, he said, "Don't you get the point? I didn't want you then, and I don't want you now."
I went back to my mother's house, who started crying when she saw what I had become. She helped me get off the drugs and back on my feet.
I am now 20 years old and two years clean. I have two jobs and am in college online. I've met an amazing guy who has a similar history and is three years clean. My mom and I have an amazing relationship.
What stuck with me wasn't all the horrible things that were said to me over the years. It's what my boyfriend and mom tell me every day.
"You're beautiful and amazing."
"Thank you for being sober."
"You made it."
No matter how much my family screwed me over, I made it!